so this is the difference between living and not living

this is post number 970. my outlook has changed.



the person i thought i was, the person i thought i was becoming, faded to a shade of grey outlined in black dots. it's now disappearing.



i'm not sure that i'm alive. i can't prove it.

i don't want anything. i'm questioning that i can even feel anything.



this is an admission of abject defeat. there is no "back on track", only drastic change.